Patience. I've got none left. My poor kids....
They really are good kids, each has their moments, but all in all they are good kids. I often evaluate the day after they've gone to bed (all at the same time now by the way!), and find that I'm disappointed in my lack of patience and whimsy. I always think to myself that I need to cut them a little break, especially since some of the things they are seeing/experiencing are for the first time... and they are asking "why?" for just that reason. But you know how it goes, 159 why's later my head is spinning and I just want quiet. I keep hearing people say "It's just a season", " you'll miss this when it's gone", etc.... and I believe that to be true.. but right now, I just want to do something else! There you have it.
As sort of a side note: I haven't gotten to my devotions lately, and when I do get to do them my perspective is different, and I feel a little more equipped, more patient, more loving. I've got to get back to those.
Moving on, the swimming has been great for me, I'm sore, but energized at the same time. It's a great way to start my day... I just need to get to bed a little earlier. Mr.19 (see previous posts if you don't know who this is) was bragging about his times today. Which, coincidentally, weren't all that much better than mine when I was his age... taking into account he's a guy. For the most part guys are just faster...but he wasn't that much faster than me really! Why does that matter? It doesn't at all. But still, important to know if you ask me. Tomorrow I have a timed race... I might die trying to keep up with Mr. 19... but at least I'm trying right?
I know what you're thinking- "How's the weight loss coming??". NOT GOOD. I've managed to GAIN 4 pounds since I started. Great. People keep giving me excuses - it's muscle, it's water(that I keep swallowing while swimming!haha), it's this, it's that... I don't need those. I don't need any more excuses, I need action, I need weight loss. And, I need shorts. But that's something else altogether.
Vulnerability
7 years ago
Oh Larissa, if you only knew how well I can relate...hearing you talk, (or type hehe) brings it all back. And all I've got is pat answers too.. = ( "THIS" is life with very small children....and I call it "the survival" period. You do what you have to do....chase kids, fix meals, bathe, heave into bed, chase kids, fix mesals, bathe, and heave...and over and over and over....In between you TRY to relax and tell yourself..."this too shall pass" and you worry that you are teaching them all the things they need to know to form their little hearts and minds into "who" they are going to be right along with the basics of talking, walking, eating the right foods, potty training, and on and on....Patience is VERY hard to find...It is a hard age (or it was for me) in many many ways....But just so you know, and I WOULD NOT make this up, or exagerate (I promise) you are one of the most patient, consistent, controlled, encouraging them to be who they are, FUN young mom's I have EVER seen, and I have seen a lot over my years!!! You really are doing a good job...If you have a day where your patience wears thin, and fades away, it is OK....it's part of the job....tomorrow is always another day....haha
ReplyDeleteAND!!! here is the exciting part, it isn't long and you will enter into what I call the "wonder years" haha, in fact, Capri is already almost there....from 5 until 12 to 13, was my easiest and favorite times....they are old enough to "get" everything, have totally developed their little personalities and are easy to motivate...they are old enough to do MANY MANY things for themselves AND (here's another really good part haha) they are at school A GOOD PART OF THE DAY!!! they seem to want to please you and excel, and YET they are still little enough to cuddle with you and think there is nothing you can't do....and this is a really long "season"....the one after than we won't mention for now....haha
As for Mr. 19.....how I wish you could beat him and put Mr. Whippersnapper in his place....haha I am soo happy you are getting to do this...something for just you is really important and I am thanking God it all worked out...as for the wieght....isn't is irritating?? BUT!! I HAVE heard that many times, I promise, that sometimes you gain weight when you start exercising...however (now this annoying) you will find, after the older you get and the more kids you have, the LESS food you can eat....how unfair is that??? right when you really NEED to eat (for many reasons) you MUST eat less. Quite draining to say the least.... but I've no doubt you will do that too....and my final thought....DO the devotions....even if they are short and quick...and I know I don't have to tell you all the reasons why...everybody benefits there..
OK, sorry this is sooo long and sorry I find the need to try and give you all my tips and thoughts...I could have summed it all with...You are doing a GOOD job, keep it up...Give Mr. 19 a run for his money, STIRVE to beat him....and the weight loss will come..., but then I wouldn't be me.....Love you....HAVE A GREAT DAY.....
Thank you so much... I really do appreciate your feedback!
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